Sometimes while lying on my bed, I look outside the window and stare into the infinite blue canvas. I never know when it ceases to be a blank canvas and transforms into a Pensieve,Β filled with memories appearing like motion pictures in high definition.
The clouds dissolve to form faces, and the rustling of leaves in the background changes to meaningful words which if had been spoken, could have changed the course of life. The incidents associated with the most extreme emotions, buried for years, come alive again. No matter how they make you feel now, it is definitely exhilarating to analyze the situation and others’ expression at that time, as a third person.
But sometimes while making sense of something that probably has no meaning, might not be even true, my gaze stops at that person who stands there, unaware of being watched so closely, having no idea how this moment will change his life. Yes, that ‘me’. The more I see into his eyes, more determined they look to keep those memories safe inside them, forever. And at this moment a scary thought engulfs my mind. ‘No one knows any of us’. No matter how much extrovert you are, how much public attention you get, there is a huge part of you visible only to you. Sometimes its so ugly that we try to ignore it and convince ourselves that it doesn’t exist. Other times, it is too beautiful to be fathomed by others. But there is always a second face that we all have, visible only to us in the pensieve. And that’s why I love gazing at the bright sky, removing my eyes from it only when the water coming from them starts tickling my cheeks and the universe for this disclosed face gets the spotlight again.
‘No one knows any of us ‘..that so thoughtful !
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Thank you, Payal. But I think those who write, do get the luxury of disclosing our hidden face to a slightly larger extent π
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Brilliantly written, indeed we all have a version of ourselves which we only know and in that person, perhaps we are the loneliest since it’s this person who knows our inside out, the beautiful and ugly, the darkness and light and everything and nothing. The only one accepting and embracing us wholly and completely π
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Yes, Barrira ! Isn’t it just great to be the mysterious one? All the superheros can now safely assume that they are not the only ones dealing with dual personality π
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They are out there saving the world and then there is me, I can’t do anything with so many of my own versions π just MPD hahah xD
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Hahaha well they can’t write like you for sure! They might save the world, but your posts like ‘Rise again’ and ‘Speak up’ are saving people from the world π
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On a normal day I will say no, I’m not awesome but since it’s a (I’m ill day) I will selfishly accept the compliment and feel good xD
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B
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I hope you get well soon and I’ll try my best to make you realize your awesomeness again then π
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An off day from work makes me feel so much better than all the meds combined lol
hahah nooo, I’m not good with compliments. Hell, I’m clumsy with conversations altogether π
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Haha that sounded like me! But something happens while writing π
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It does, it does.
If only I could go on handing over notes to people imstead of opening my mouth, I’d have a fan following π
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Hahaha God created a blunder by giving vocal cords to humans π
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I’m sure all the smooth talkers will disagree xD
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I don’t think they are here to read it π
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Of-course xD there has to be a ‘no talking’ place ^_^
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And that is our paradise ! So that’s why silence in a library. I guess those big writers too get uncomfortable with talking people.
(I have no idea what am I saying)
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It’s okay, I get you π
Writing is a form of peace, while talking is done to fill the uncomfortable silences between people mostly lol.
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You hit the bull’s eye here! And by the way, how are you now? Ready to go to work tomorrow? π
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Well I’m alive so far lol not doing too well but can’t really take another day off. Also, I have been pretty stupid (never over doze on meds, never!) take it from me HA!
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Oh Get well soon and yes, do that without the extra meds now. :p
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Lesson learned *shakes head* lol and thanks π
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Wow. That’s such an intricate thought put across so well π
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Thank you so much, Manvi. I am glad to know that it was put across well. The thought of living with a dual personality was disturbing me for some time now and it is great to see that I am not alone here. π
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Oh you sure aren’t. Too many of us live more than two people at a people. You’re welcome π
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Another point where we have found our thoughts to be same… We all have a dark side which is most often hidden from people… Often from us too. Not because we don’t know about it, but because we’re too afraid to acknowledge it… It scares us to strip off our facade and peer inside to see the real us. What if we never recover from what we see? What if we inadvertently show it to others by acknowledging it? What if we fall for our darker, hidden side? What if…
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How can you write my thoughts so well ! Yes yes ! I am afraid to acknowledge it, and I get frightened of myself by the thought of falling for my darker side. Your words are really relieving. I am not alone facing this crisis and now I got some strength to peek into that face with a lot more confidence π
Thank you, as always Aditi π
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I wasn’t writing your thoughts. I was writing mine. But looks like now they’re ours! π
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Hehe these are the moments when an apt song should pe played like our movies π
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Haha! Which one do you think would be most suitable? π
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It would be an original one for sure. Hasn’t been made π
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Ahh! Okay π
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“But there is always a second face that we all have, visible only to us in the pensieve. And thatβs why I love gazing at the bright sky, removing my eyes from it only when the water coming from them starts tickling my cheeks and the universe for this disclosed face gets the spotlight again.”
That is Gorgeous !!
We all have one part of our soul covered with a veil, that never sees the light of the day..Its just for us.. No-one ever knows anyone completely ever..
This a Beautiful piece buddy.. Take a Bow !
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Thank you so much ! I feel the piece has been successful now.
And that’s why I loved the idea of an anonymous blog, Miss S. π
That hidden part of the soul would be slightly more comfortable in coming out this way π So you take a bow for that. (Do we look like sumo wrestlers before a fight now?) π
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Hahaha.. We look like karate fighters.. Sumo wrestler is too hefty for me..
Ya, Anonymous blog.. It also gives me that filmy ‘i am mysterious’ satisfaction π
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Haha ya karate fighters are more classy too π
And ‘I am mysterious’ image is quite alluring too π
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I know it is.. **grins**
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How public we wish to be while our being is locked inside our shell. Writing helps. Nicely said!
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Amazingly summarized. And yes, writing is helping indeed. Have a great Sunday π
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Pensieve.. I never realized that I do that too.. In fact you gave words to my state late evenings. Thanks Prateek,
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Hehe, sharing armchair thoughts with a perfectionist – that’s something for me to feel proud ^_^.
I am really honored, Prajakta. Thank you so much for letting me know that you could relate π
Have a great Sunday painting the blue skies with your memories π
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There is a actually a very famous saying that we all have three identities.
One-who we are among strangers.
Two-who we are among friends.
Three-who we are when we’re alone.
That third identity is only known to us, it is so sacred and so pure that we choose to reveal it only in the company of our most trusted companion, ourselves. No matter how much we try, we cannot reveal it. That is raw beauty in the most limpid form. That is who we really, truly are.
Lovely post. Made my day. π
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Aakansha, I began reading this post at 4-32 am, with laziness so profound that I was ignoring my dried throat as the water bottle was kept out of reach.
Once I finished reading it, I think your contagious energy has been transmitted here π These words that you have written are so true! The more I think about your words “That is raw beauty in the most limpid form”, the more I realize that your sense of beauty is really beautiful and I will try to share that some day.
And finally, the last words of your comment made this post worth posting. Thank you so much for all of this π
Have a lovely Sunday. I hope your exams went good π
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That’s such a genuinely appreciative comment. Thank you so much.
Although, you’re the one who wrote this beautiful article, so that explains why you have such a beautiful mind. π
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You make me blush π I am really humbled by these words coming from such a lovely person π
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My exams are still going on. Ugh.
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May God give you all the strength you need π
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Amen. π
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So brilliant. It starts with beautiful lines and imagination.. then gets into the reality of one’s innerself.. its true.. v all hav a but of us.. that is VISIBLE TO US ONLY. n v tend to keep it to us. Then again.. it ends up with on a lovely note.
Great work Kohli. Keep goin.
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Thank you so much, Amulya. Your encouraging words meant a lot. Have a lovely day ahead π
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You’re welcome !! π
May u hv a lovely day ahead, too.
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And its bit* not but lol
My typing sucks!! -.-)
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The bright side of every man is just beside his dark side…:D Very thoughtful post there Prateek!
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And its our choice to decide which side would be shown to the world. Thank you so much, again π
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True that!
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Shall I share something? Yes ,I will share it anyhow π
I love to watch the sky. Gazing at the vastness, shining stars, whiteness of the moon …. it’s all so beautiful. Sometimes I feel like the sky answers a lot of my questions. Helps in removing all the clutter, clearing space in brain for fresher thoughts.
Yours is a beautiful post π
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It is beautiful indeed, Maryam ! π
I also read somewhere that a lot of problems in the world would be solved if everyone just looked at the sky during night time. π
Thank you so much for sharing your experience and the appreciative comment. You certainly made me smile more than once today π
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The pleasure is all mine π
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No one really knows us completely!! Even extroverts have an invisible side to them.. a veil covering their deepest thoughts!
Indeed.. π
Very nicely written! Loved it! And the title is just P-E-R-F-E-C-T! π
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It is heartening to see that an artist is able to relate to it π I feel the realization of not knowing others’ stories help us understanding them a bit better.
I don’t know if I made sense, but your adorable appreciation made my day. Thank you ^_^
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Most welcome.. You obviously made complete sense π
Artist? I’m not a pro yet! π
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But your works are shouting out that you will be π
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Aww thanks! π
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Wow! You left me speechless over here. Sometimes we even forget ourselves while living our lives then such moments, they make us realize, they show us what we are and how we are. Simply beautiful.
I am planning to stalk your blog until I fall asleep π
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Very true, Preeti. We claim to know about other people and often judge their actions but it is really difficult do the same with ourselves.
I really hope now that you do not sleep after reading another post! (God, don’t make me this boring please) π
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We humans are so complicated π We act like we are all omniscient but in reality, we are ignorant about our very own self and as we don’t about ourselves expecting that we know others is ALOT OF EXPECTATIONS π I hope I make sense.
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You make complete sense. And that’s why it is always a pleasure to hear your views. π
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Yeah you somehow provoke the thought mechanism up in my head π
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Horlicks was the only competitor I had. Making people taller, stronger, sharper π
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Time to throw it out from the market :p lets prove that it has some harmful shitty chemicals in excess 3:-)
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Hahaha ! You’re the best!
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π same to you.
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